I seemed to me that it had been years since I posted last, and I hate to admit it, but when looking at my last post, I realized it had been! Going back to work after being on maternity leave with Marcus left me with little spare time for anything extracurricular, and I just slowly lost the drive and creativity to write.
Shame on me.
That however, is about to change. So much has happened in the last two years, and much more is about to. And I find I've been missing not only the writing process, but sharing our lives with the online community and reading the feeding and other similar stories. What can I say, I may be a bit of a diva.
As I said, much has happened these two years. Firstly, Christmas 2012 brought a surprise gift for me; a proposal! After almost 10 years and two wonderful children later, Chris and I had the opportunity to further cement our bond to one another in front of our friends and family, and were married October 20, 2012. Everything that could have gone right, did, and it was a beautifully wonderful and emotional day.
Following the engagement, I found out a week later at New Years that I was expecting again, yet lost the baby at 3 months. That was one of the most painful and difficult things I have ever experienced, and yet am now able to acknowledge it happened, and share the memories and what I learnt from it all.
They say (who they are I have yet to figure out!) that everything happens for a reason, and as I write this I am less than four weeks away from welcoming a new son into the family! As devastating as it was to loose my other child, this one (Alexander!) will have almost the same age difference between himself and Marcus as there is between Marcus and Lucien. And watching my elder two play and explore so well together, I cannot wait for our third son to bond as well!
So as one can imagine, home life is once again (was it ever truly not?) crazy. But the warm, well-loved kind of crazy that can only happen when my husband and boys are around. I love it. And as tomorrow officially starts my next maternity leave, I look forward to sharing our challenges, triumphs, and experiences on our somewhat-urban homestead with you once more!